jojo

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JoJo by Shinee is nice! Could it be that I’m ABIT influenced by al the crazy fans aka huilan and mx?

haha.

stressing over school. my schedules packed and all, but all I want to is just chillax with my good friends whom I have not seen in eons. sometimes I feel sad when I see my other friends having monthly reunions, (and even weekly!) and they take many happy looking pictures leh!!

but I won’t let my expectations pile up : D haha, I know deep down I would be mean and selfish to expect them to go out with me, and in the end, it won’t even be happy.. plus like chars going thru much now and I can’t even be there for her. In her immediate reach would be her schoolmates. so yah! thats much better I feel!(: good good! lol. self conversation!!

but self immersing in school work, tuition and church help me forget worldly troubles!(:

 

But I do have one very best awesome friend! God!(:

 it’s very much enough!!! haha. p.s I’m the one that clings on to Him!

 

random things happening today.

1)120 ppl late for school today. JAM LIKE MAD?? so angry at land transport authority.

2)mushrooms growing at neighbours house grass patch. so tempted to (&#@*$ hahahaha(:

3)I swear my BIO teacher LIES without blinking.

4)I can do 30 situps in 1min. HALLELUJAH!(: WHOOO~~

5)I think my bangs feel different this time.

 

ok so tired..

weather very good today. I MISS RAIN THOUGH?

xoxoalicia

p.s having faith that wakapella will pass audition one!(:

that’s to you my l.o.v.e

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I know my pastors love us alot, because it takes so much to do two different sermons for two days.. And do an impromptu one. WOW!(:
When my heart is open, I feel I recieve more then usual. I’m awake when others doze off at the mention of “flip to the bible with me” because God has awakened the desire in me to know Him more.
It’s a hunger, a good hunger!

 

Ignorance is bliss; denial isn’t.

that’s why I’m so thankful I knew that one tiny fact about you. although I’m a little sad, but it’s ok! because I can finally put you down and go on with my life!

OH

the show “stars falling from the sky” is good!

although the leads arent very shuai or what, the storyline is good!(: hahahaha

 

schools tmr, honestly really tired but LIKE AUNTY MX ALWAYS SAYS, FIGHTING!(:~~

HAHAHA!(:

 

looking forward to serving more in decor, and bookstore! like being surrounded books can be a very happy thing! although quite paisei can’t really rmb the titles when ppl ask!!

 

can’t believe it, I stumbled on chair legs three times in a row, then a human leg. wts.

I got to stop being clumsy, it might take my life one day you know??

 

whoosh! sch tmr, so nights to this world.

lovely dayyyy!

xoxoalicia

if it helps, do it!

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Hello hello!

Thanking God for another day of laughter.

Every minute you are angry, is 60 SECONDS of HAPPINESS WASTED.

so what for?

Thinking very hard over the discipleship I’ve recieved. I don’t know what to do but I believe God will know what suits me best and change me from inside out!(:

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I haven’t bought CNY clothes leh!!! HOW AH? I mean all I bought online is INAPPOPRIATE! I need to go shop. anyone up? just jio liaos!

And I so need to clean my room and ESPECIALLY the drawers which is holding all my junk. tsktsk right.

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I love God!(: hhaha!

 

Tell you something amazing! I was attempting to do one hour of QT using what I learnt during GS and to cut the long story short, I asked God to bless me financially, rmbing I have to be SPECIFIC, I asked for financial blessing of $10 BECAUSE I wanted to save up for BF.

This morning, amidst morning drowsiness, told mom was gonna cut hair, she gave me $15 THEN said “AIYA $10 FOR YOU GO EAT LAH!” and gave me A ADDITIONAL $10.

God is omnipotent, and omnipresent, He is here, around us, He sees, feels, I cannot BEGIN to explain God because He is too BIG to be explained.

BUT ONE THING FOR SURE, no matter what prayer you say, long or short, He hears you.

And according to His will, it will come to pass.

(:

 

no matter what things I’m going through in life, using the why waste one minute of happiness quote, I know I will be happier then ever!!(: I won’t be happy cos of circumstances but because I’ve made this PRE-MADE decision to do so!(:

 

lovely day ppl

xoxoalicia!

 

 

all it was meant to be

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This probably sums up my whole week.

God, on monday, after trying to sputter out the few words that I’ve hidden so very long in my heart it probably fermented while crying, I was exhausted for the whole week already. It took so much out of me.

But you do know God is amazing right? It took so much out of it because it’s my 1st time trying to tell someone my ugliness.

I’m not sure what will happen in the future, I feel very vulnerable. However, without taking that step of faith I know I will never grow.

It’s alright if people are still doubtful, because I know I caused it.

I’m gonna be a better person!!!

:p

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Productive studying at Starbucks today. 1 Java Chip Frapp with Whipped, 4 Hours, One chair, 1 too low table, rain. And chloe’s appearance made me day!

Loved it!(:

Today I had a really interesting conversation!

“Friday’s are my rest days!”

For me friday is chiong like mad day, do all HW, all things to be studied, all notes to be made day.

Cos on weekends, I want to be in the house of God!(: And not just on weekends! Weekdays to serve, to learn!

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What should I do for V-day?

hahah!(:

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Should really start practicing piano.. hee. Talentime, HERE COMES WAKAPELLA!(:

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GS was really powerful! It’s easy to pray one hour. (:

 

xoxoalicia

in the nick of time.

whoo! the actual poster after being printed on paper!!

actual me posing! was like torture

He drew me awesomely!

My very talanted drew my potrait!(: i think it’s too pretty!! : P

CCA Fair today! And I thought art club really bonded today!(: I drew loads of potraits for ppl!(: and also got drawn! it was really tiring to pose for 15min cos it’s so tortureous to stay still!!!

today almost fell down two times down the stairs. heng both time got friend help me!!! or else down the stairs I go!

I have a new eye candy!! He’s really damn cute lah!(:

 

It was really sweet of you to respond to something that wasn’t really directed to you!(:
I was actually laughing at something else, and then you took notice and started laughing too! And that really kickstarted the chain reaction of laughing!!
It was just really a moment that made me smile from the bottom of my heart when I walked home yesterday!(:
You make a good friend!!
sorry I couldn’t go watch you dance your hilarous dance!! haha, but I’m sure you’ll do really well!(:

everyday seems to merge into a blur and each day passes so fast. school’s reallllly chionging!(:< treasure the time schooling and with my friends! I don’t really like the idea of of friends becoming “have been”!! we gotta make effort to love each other no matter how busy!!

 

the maid still likes to shift my things around.

i can do 24 situps in1min! TKVM AUDRIE!(: really wanna make you proud!

read a post of how this girl describes her love at first sight experience.

hm. I’ll do that in one lightyears time.

 

hows your life!!

xoxo alicia

 

 

smile

it’s true that noone loves me more than You!(:

re-discovering Him is way awesome, talking to Him everyday rocks, being led by HS is like the best lah! He’s like my personal Map in PDAs, telling you where to go. Just that in this case, it’s the direction of my thoughts, actions and words. (:

I feel like 10kg of weights are lifted off my shoulders.

I am thankful for every breath I take, every pain I feel, each small raindrop I feel, the mistakes I make,

thankful to just live.

Towards spiritual maturity!

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watching new drama called down with love which I think is funny leh!(; hahaha.

i have this whole new attitude toward studying. i like studying now! hahaha, I like learning new things, and although I’m not very smart, whenever there’s hw I really got try to do my best although FAIL. hahahaha. but still, maybe I realise time is short now. :///

只為愛上你- S.H.E is also very nice!(:

 

so excited for art club’s booth at CCA Fair tmr! I hope many many mainstream ppl will join!(: and excited for walk in tmr. got many of me friends dancing so.. YEAH!!

GO ATIKA, MY WAKAPELLA MATE AND WEILING!!!

hoho

xoxo alicia

 

agaga, wakaka

i really love friendship bands. I did it for like 4 yrs in primary sch. sums up childhood!(:

you know weijie once said during GS, that God talks to you YOUR LINGO.

so conversation with God goes like this:

“God, I know I bla la lala, but I have faith in You!” SMILES brightly due to faith arising.

God goes “Yes! Trust in me. Rmb I told you to look to me and keep looking!”

then I go YES!

then He goes “great! you’re doing good!”

cute right!

Since we are made in the image of God, and since I’m so cute and pretty, MY GOD IS SUPER CUTE TOO!(:

(of course I have fear and reverence for Him lah!)

sometimes He disciples me.

“alicia, you know you are in the wrong.”

simple right, but it’s the feelings that make me know omg it’s Him!!! the feeling of righteousness of God. and I know I got to say and do something to revert it.

I love talking to Him.

my close confidante, friend, Father, love.

 

clumsiness is climbing up.

#1) Falls during P.E  DUE TO SOMEONES SHOES ah.

#2) GETS HIT BY BALL DURING FORFEIT TODAY. and I thought I was walking the right way.

#3) Bumped into MX while turning. thought she walked alr!!! but in the end burnt myself with the kimnchi soup. die lah!

#4) Jinghong totally wahbham me with her feet today.

 

HOPE I WILL IMPROVE ON hand-eye coordination!

btw

UPDATE ON SITUPS TRAINING!

i can do 2O SITUPS! in like ~45sec! although on the charts its still a FAIL! i know i can do it!!!!(:

 

EPIC MOMENT OF DAY.

Yuxuan smsed jinghong

“I’m gone, in case, you wonder”

OMG HAHAHA. LAUGHED UNTIL BLOOD VESSEL BURST!!!!! HAHAHA.

 

although I heard news that CCH no longer recruiting female teachers, and that I’m not told to go YYC meeting tmr,

I FEEL OK LEH!!

GOD REALLY CHANGED ME!! WHOO!

awesome.

although i know tmr i have to face a person i don’t really like, BUT I WILL STILL LOVE HER!

YES YES.

egg-cited even though things are really sucky right now. the problems are there but it’s ok!(;

xoxoalicia

MOVING ON

omg, today I totally almost died lah.
suffered from indigestion and vomited in toilet. felt like shit.

still hoping you would come talk to me, SM. You gotta.

feel changed by God through this trial.

 

I love Him. So much.

one life, I lay at the alter.
it’s His, in mine.

 

tired.

xoxoalicia

fragmented

Things change.
I changed.
I hope better? (:

I have alot of things to say,

i typed it all out.

then i deleted it.

 

feeling like crap cos I’m sick. today really sucked at school. I hurt myself, and the friends whom I thought cared about me didn’t really give a damn. Those expressionless faces. The curt words. Why did I even expect them to react the same way they do to the other people? Seriously take me for granted. And just because I spoke out about it, she was bu shuang. MX is too kind, but this time you took it too far. Don’t ever ever think you can have best of the both worlds without GIVING. We’re just not stepping stones for you.

I’m sick of it.

I’m sick of life. this rat race. this life I have.

thanking God is the hardest thing I can do now, but I will.

(:

I don’t need the fake love people give me.

no.

as expected, even my own leader is having second thoughts of me.

how awesome.

 

I know we are all having a hard time.

but it’s so sad that I have noone to talk to. like really cry to.

maybe to the toiletbowl yeah.

 

 thanks God. I feel I still have You. You’re the only thing for me to cling on to madly. HAHA. : D

 

sticky sweets

it says "be bold, join art" HAHA, d.i.y posters for art club!

What we did was to use ink dye, and draw on glass. then we could transfer the paint onto cartilage paper. OR, roll gradient paint and place paper over it and use pencil and draw, and the pigments will be drawn up onto it!(: I liked this one the most.(: it’s flipped cos if you transfer then it’ll be the right direction! 

scribbling in GP, bored to tears.

So tired from school that I’m falling sick.

watching this new jap show, and the girl goes :”SO BRIGHT” and headbutts ppl when she sees people who apparently are normal and thus shine to her.

I’m like that now.

Why am I so irritating and feel so unhappy when people have the things I crave for, feel like I’ll forever be struggling with this. And it sucks.

I don’t feel like I’ll be a significant other in someones life. Anyones. No. ughs.

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fell down during standing broad jump! hahahah one second was in air, next was on butt. HAHAHAHA, damn funny lohs! My mom finally bought me new shoes and I really liked it!! COUPLED with a few assessment books. NICE JOB MOM, so smart of you!

I really got to start re-doing my design cos I’m a perfectionist when it comes to these things. I want to leave NJ with a nice t-shirt ok. SPEAKING OF WHICH, the SH1s came today. OVERPOPULATION I TELL YOU. Everywhere was crowded permanently and it was super noisy. I admit I glared at many who walked past during GP and looked at us like we were exhibits in da zoo. HELLO? never see chio bu before isit. oh btw I’m broke, cab fare, and white $$. killed me man. plus NOTES?? and pens. half of allowance gone. I need to go into finance workshops and learn to save up like now.

Liking ALL the weird topics, like organic chem(ITS SO INTERESTING!!! IT’S simple, every rxn but then when there’s 100 rxns to rmb, wth lah) AND MACRO! ohhh, love it because I like looking at the economy at a larger perspective thats why I don’t get micro. If you think I’m talking gibberish, sorry ah! hahaha

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xoxoalicia